Tuesday, November 21, 2006

When will joy peep in my life?

When will joy peep in my LIFE?

read it somewhere really liked it
"To the questions of my life, am the only answer, To the problems of my life, am the only solution"

i remember goin thru few lines...somewhere...by Carl Jung...it says..."one does not become enlightened by imaginin light...but by makin darkness conscious...."

Somehwere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
Any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near


your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose


(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands

yes!! ...thats my ray of sunshine...that brightens up each mornin...promisin a peaceful night...when i close my eyes... i see u...u peep in my memory...thats when JOY peeps in my life...!!!

Monday, November 20, 2006

I Miss YOU!

I MISS YOU

the calogne you wore, the smile , the sound of ur breath, the holding of hands(first 2 fingers mostly:)) , the cofees we had together, the plays we saw, i miss you yaar, i really do.....every now and then, all the memories just come back and sit besides me ,they flash the most precious moments of my life.each and every moment which is still clear in my mind as if it just happened.....
nd i know am saying this the million'th time but nomatter what happened or happens between us, nomatter what grudges remain or come up within me or you , nomatter how we part ways if we do, you have a place within me which no one can take, you are and would always stay my first love.......


Btw- i saw parineeta again today and i still see so much of shekhar in me...:)

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Female bladder v/s Male bladder

read a blog somewhere....

According to him/her MEN HAVE SMALLER BLADDERS THAN WOMEN...

arithmetically
female bladder capacity > male bladder capacity

...i found the concept and the reasoning very true....and wait it is rational and not just thrown in as a statement without head or tail.
The argument to support this case is the thousands of male bladders emptying themselves on our already 'not so clean' roads for the lack of storage space *i assume they are not doing it for cheap thrills , compared to the female bladders who presumibly have bigger bladders and hence more capacity to store which gives them more time to find toilets and further resulting them not resorting to emptying them *mostly on high streets, on different color walls and beneath the flyover......With a lot of people and not just me knowing the fact that thier walls go through a wash which they would rather do without, write a lot of unclean language on them like(dekh gadha m*** raha hai or abey ghodhe ghar pe m***)... but our small bladder men even after reading these unclean comments dont refrain from the act, makes me believe that it gets out of thier hand and it is a decision 'under pressure' and in emergency situation because of availibility of less space which is due to smaller bladder capacity.........s
the goverments steps of opening public toilets only for men (mostly that i have seen) around the city also endosres my findings.......so people please keep the above in mind when you make a face while seeing someone answering the natures call on your walls.

please note the assumptions taken are
1. the location is india
2. the survey by the writer is of delhi
3. males and females have equal quantities of water


ps- please dont use my house wall guys, i wrote in your support ...

From Calcutta to Celtic Park

PASSION PASSION - ITS A GAME( its in the uk guardian 28th nov edition )

A ball which can make millions smile, cry , ecstatic, drum to its beat , jump up, go tub thumping , fight, kill , abuse, faint, love, hate , live , die.
The following of that ball is beyond the fact that 22 players playing and a few million watching have a few hours of entertainment.
Football has the same kind of passion in this part of the world as i see for cricket in the sub continent.It just makes us reallize again, how every part of the globe has the same feelings running for different things . Cricket or the second religion for most of us in that part of the world is not just a game but a fight of our pride our identity our existense and gives us a sense of belonging to our respective countries. It is a sport played with a lot of passion , and the result could be found on every face you see after the game.
Football and cricket have nothing in common except both are played with 11 players on each side and there is a ball in each of the games , but wait there is much more i reallized. I can see the love for the game which i used to see in the sub continent .
When i came here to the UK i noticed the same thing , just that the sport was different.
It was the match between Scotland and france and everyone was talking about it.Our professor left the class early to watch the match made me realize, the following and importance this sport had for the people living in this country.Another close british friend of mine used an expression which caught my attention, she said "All hells can break loose" and i could relate to what she meant by that, having experienced the same feeling for a lot of games , just that the place and the game was very different.
Another common aspect which could be seen in the two absolutely different games is the religious aspect of the following . when celtic played rangers, i could feel the adrenalin pumping, tension rising, it felt like war and yes it was a very familiar feeling , the same when india plays pakistan in any cricket match.It feels like the only goal of life is to win on that day , an emotion felt by a few millions together makes the whole environment electric.
Both the sports are very unique and have a huge following , are great entertainers and are played with a lot of zest. An amazing thing which both the sports possess and can do is that they can unite the whole country together , they can make everyone talk the same language , feel the same emotions , dress up in the same clothes and laugh or cry at the same time.
Its amazing how one sport can get the whole country together and a win can make everyone celebrate like it is some big festival, but thats the magic of sports . It can unite the whole country and make them celebrate and forget all the problems in thier respective lives and live them for that moment , together.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

?

3 oclock on sunday morning,

long conversations,
shots of caffiene,
marlbaro regulars,
japanese food,
greek drinks,
some intersting people....

who said life isnt worth it?

Friday, November 10, 2006

We dont need no Education....

we dont need no EDUCATION.......

Education is like soft porn....oh i shouldnt have started like that,,,ok lets start again....................
I Have always loved the sense of knowladge,the fact that i know stuff about different things, the feeling of being aware of my surroundings , the sense of being a person with a broader horizon on various issues........the whole dynamics of being
educated.
Education is an endless phenomenon, you never know where to stop or if you have enough...or mayb you can never have enough....'education is living and vice a versa' as barry john always used to say........
its a search of finding your own self by means of know how of various things ....called thyself if im not wrong(read it somewhere i think looong back)

A professor sometime back told me an amazing defination
he said "education is about learning to ask better questions"
'i agree geoff but sometimes you want answers as well' i said..........
he replied "yes, but then thats another question in itself,isnt it"......................
lifes just so beutifull and education gives it those eyes to learn , to see , to live .... i wish i have a few more lives and i could see most of it if not all................amen

Thursday, November 09, 2006

UK fashion - No mystery

UK fashion - NO MYSTERY
(Asian age newspaper 2nd november edition but the editor has made it very so called 'uk friendly'.....tese goras na...)

That’s what female fashion is here in the UK...its no MYSTERY!

'Never buy, make them sell' that’s what my father used to tell me....
And I tell him that in the in UK there is a concept of RENT as well.....HAHAHHAH!!

All the little skirts and the plunging necklines, the short tops and skirts ,the “dangerously” low jeans, the backless tops and the stockings… all designed for fancy dress… but so “serviceable” that lot of women wear nothing else!

And if one goes by mere length, the boots here have rendered clothes unemployed by the millions on account of performance and delivery of goals… protection and modesty!!

One wonders sometimes on the invincibility and fortitude of a woman’s spirit here; women don’t bat an eyelid in their semi-clad, or call it semi-nude if you so fancy, conditions in temperatures that can freeze water if left unattended for long. Pardon my ignorance, but what is it? Determination or celebration…?

And you definitely can’t miss the innumerable holes that are drilled into one’s body here. Mmm…pardon me, I’m an ignorant fool you see, so P.I.E.R.C.I.N.G is what you call it? Ah! I see.

One gets to see quite a bit of that, isn’t it, on areas that were traditionally considered to be body parts - the ears, the belly, the tongue, the eye, the eyebrow, the lips, the chin, and errr....., on areas of erogenous interests as well.

Red on Monday, pink on Tuesday, violet on Wednesday, olive green on Thursday, blue on Friday, ochre yellow on Saturday, and Ah…lets see… a burnt brown on Sunday! Hurrah! I’ve got my hair ready for the week!

Oh yes, you get them in all shapes and sizes here,its a mix i have never seen in my whole life and anywhere else in the world...you are sure to meet someone your size no matter how big or small you are......there is always someone a step ahead of you.............


And finally, the undergarments, which the French would in their irritatingly delicate and polite manner call lingerie, unlike most employees, often work overtime and beyond their job profile – they also serve as external clothing! Isn’t that wonderful! An extremely cost efficient and productive utilization of resources as taught in our MBA class.

Ah girls, don’t get me wrong, for you know what, trust me none of us (including me) seem to mind it
you all are so pretty and hot
and just carry it off.........

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

J&TT

junior and tiny tots

Once upon a time,in a few small houses in the middle of gk1 new delhi, was a school called JNTT .it had the most wonderfull people in the world inside it.
so just when i started to grow up , we were in the senior most class in school,......
1995 i think it was class 7th .:)
memories i and believe most of us from that school cherish, and will all our lifes.
the early morning prayers,
the school song,
the different houses(i was in teresa) ,
the shorts we wore,
all the aunties and some uncles,
the PT sessions,
and all the yex + yen= aunty jyoti,
the uniform ,
sports day in the triangular park,
the chocolates and toffees on birthdays,
and ofcource aunty sandra......
those were the days.................



and yesss, how can we forget the gwalior trip,the small single room with 5 people staying..the dal chawal...the forts we saw,the journey in the bus, the gossips and rumours ,ohhh just miss those times...
and twinkle u rem you cried on that trip because u were missing home....hahhaha
and also the memory which stays with me always ,is the one and only class i bunked in that school.oh it was scary because the school was so small that it wasnt a very good idea to do that....ashu u rem that 1? ....:)


WE CAN JUST SAY:
There are schools and there is JNTT(and modern,sorry have a soft corner for that as well:) )


and then now after 11 years there is suddenly the showring of memories ,the old friendships ,the get togethers and parties(so called reunions), and etc etc thanks to orkut ,yahoo groups .......and b4 i forget to mension sikka the master mind behind all these findings(hes secretelly very happy to be mentioned on someones blog) .........its a shame i missed it all

miss u guys....love pranay

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Virus of the mind

saturday afternoon 4th november 2006

oh i dont know why were computers made...........

they have a problem with them everyday, you keep running around repairing them more than using them....microsoft has made everyone an addict of this drug they call COMPUTERS...its like huh....and over the top of it all everything is like legal here..can u believe it that the cheapest windows cd is 85£....i can buy 85 cds for that price at home ......and yes 1 problem leads to another, thats like a must.......you repair 1 problem and bet another will crop up,and if you are a student you mite be selling your clothes in the end to repair it.....so i suggest if you owe a computer look for the closest dustbin and............
i am really pissed today so all my yahoo,msn ,orkut pplzzz, whom i promised i would be online but my computer had a problem again .....dont miss me, dont think about me but ya i still dont mind coffee(nescafe).......


PS- IBM,microsoft has new openings :)

signing off

Friday, November 03, 2006

Am i ?or AM i not?

am i or am i not

oh this 1 is just for me so dont bother reading it

i sometimes feel like i can fly, there are times when i want to touch the sky
the shabbyness of the room , the grin on the face of the moon,
the darkness of the night, the early morning sight
the deep thoughts of mine , the silence of the night
the way i look at life , the days i cant sleep at night
i dont know who i am , i dont know what i am
am i mad or am i sane
am i guilty or am i just too plain
am i someone in disguise
am i here to make you smile,,
i am what i am............
i am what i am..............



i know its senseless, but thats how i wanted it to be *tilted grin
and i cant imagine that some people are so jobless in life that they are reading my blog.........
and ya i had 7 mugs of coffee today
signing off,,,...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Love Bites

morning of 2nd november 2006

if you ever get to read this

"i keep wondering how people are different every second.how it just isnt the same after a few words said, why did u change?and if u did, why didnt you inform?
why cant u ever owe the responsibility of the other people who might get hurt by what you say?why is it so much of 'me' always?
i dont know if i am making sense or not .
change is the only constant i agree, but why do you always blame the situations,.......why do you always hurt me and in a minute, very conveniently say sorry.
i know i would never be able to hate you or stop talking to u,maybe you know that as well and thats why i tried my best, but i reallised it today that its just not meant to be......"

and yes

to the thousands of unfinished conversations that you owe me,
to all the moments i dint sleep thinking about you,
to all those memories we had together,
to the whole journey of time from IHC till today,
to all your if's and but's,
to all your moments of weakness,
to all these years that i gave you,
to the explanation you owe me someday in life of why u always have to do this,
to all of u and none of us.


it was magical,
yes it was love...
i wished if i could melt,
yes it was love...
i could see you with closed eyes,
yes it was love...
i smiled for no reason,
yes it was love...
everyone looked like you,
yes it was love...
i could feel you everywhere,
yes it was.......
just that it wasn't meant to be ..........

will miss this part of me always ...bye my love
2nd nov 2006
todays actions

1st nov 2006
on a lazy day with no classes, slept for over 15 hours. went out of the room ,grabbed a drink, slept again,got up ,had cofee , ate what tobias had cooked ,slept again. got up again, chat abt the most arbit topics with rekha , slept again ,finally got up ,wrote this blog...planning to sleep again...


oh by the way if any one of you happens to pass by just wash my clothes, thev not bin washed for a month now,.........signing offf ......(slept)