When the sun rises

The innocent sins as someone said once, cant believe only people are allowed to do that! Am i not Human!
Where do i always go wrong?

Whenever i think i am falling for someone , something somewhere has to give, i feel the pain ofthe ignorance of people, thier lack of trust on someone they love. I am confused i agree , but i am not as bad as you think i am, cant believe it happened again!

When the sun would rise,
you would realise,
what i said was true.........
what i said was true.........

Couldn't believe that you would trust someone,
more than to the one you loved,
it makes my heart cry,
and ask the question ,Why?

One day when you realise ,
you would also cry,
i hope i am there then,
and console you with wiping your tears
because it means a lot to me,
that you always stay happy,

What i said was true ,
what i said was true....

i swear i am falling in love with you!


pranay
feb 2007

Some ? , still in search for an answer,

IRAQ – A WAR FOR INJUSTICE?

‘I cry everyday when I see innocent people die for nothing , we have made the situation worse than what it would have been if our troops wouldn’t have gone there’ A statement by an old English man who lost his son in the war(Panorama BBC).

In the same documentry it was told that about 50 families have not even been told what happened to their children, ‘He was a soldier for 3 years , a son for 21. He was fighting for his country , where is the support?’ and when a BBC reporter asked this to Adam Ingrim he said it is not the army’s job but the governments, starting a blame game with no one ready to take accountability for a decision which I believe ruined a few thousand lives. ‘IRAQ WAR’ an issue very close to my heart and which has made me cry a few times though I have no one fighting in the war, no friends in there and have never visited the country(though would love to) .

It was shouted out as a war against injustice by the great president of America, who believed In killing a few millions and completely destroying terrorism from its roots . Can’t believe countries like Britain bought that idea. It makes me laugh at how gullible these people( And so many more) are who were once known as the most powerful people of the world, a nation which ruled half the world and who have an amazing quality known as 'leadership'.

Actually thinking about it what did we Indian’s do? Nothing. We as a government did not even have a global say to do anything but the then Prime Minister Atal Bihari Vajpayee did not even publicly criticize the war. As long as it doesn’t effect us don’t speak is what we thought, where did that value system go, those teachings of fighting for your right dissapeared which the BJP government always chanted about? I always used to think Mr Vajpayee was a great articulator , a great leader and one of our best prime minister till then, it made me show how even a man like him is first a politician then a protester/campaigner against injustice . No one wanted to say anything to the most powerful country openly ,after all that’s where the money comes from they thought . Who cares if a few of them die, we will send the toothless bulldogs (United nations) by the end of it.

Talking to an American friend (actually a few) I realised how even they were against the war , it made me get into deep thoughts of why did Iraq happen then? Why could no one of us say/do anything to stop it? Why did the UN not say anything (Kofi Annan I had expected would)? Who benefited from it? If it is about world terrorism then Bush why just Iraq and afganistan ? why not Kashmir, Ireland , Pakistan, Srilanka(LTTE) , Palestine , lebenon etc etc……….. So many questions, searching for an answer . Do you have any ?????????????????????

.*Sorry people just saw panorama on BBC so got in that zone again, Btw Huma you made it worst love…………..lol

WASTED CLEAVAGE!!!!

WASTED CLEAVAGE!!!!


So, this is the way the world ends, not with a bang nor with a whimper but with a cleavage!This blog is either part of the problem or a thought on its solution. I comment; you decide.

The late Murray Kempton once described editorial writers as "the people who come down from the hill after the battle to shoot the wounded." Nowadays, media analysts are the people who follow behind them, going through the pockets of the dead looking for loose change.

So, yes, this blog is about Anna Nicole Smith and yes I am a media critique! (thats what my friends have started calling me now:))
Friday morning, less than 24 hours after she died in a Florida hotel room, the Drudge Report — America’s most famous media culture's digital arbiter of all things tacky and prurient — had 12 items posted on the onetime topless dancer. That would account for some of the media frenzy surrounding her death. It's a little-known fact, but certain sectors of the broadcast media have long believed that if a dozen items on Anna Nicole Smith ever were posted on Drudge simultaneously, it would herald the onset of the apocalypse. Of course, one of the cheapest journalistic tricks going is to get a piece of mindless, tawdry media frenzy by denouncing it. The writer gets to wallow profitably in whatever gutter has, everybody's attention while still being wry and high-minded.
The readers get to join the fun without losing their self-respect. It's a win-win sort of arrangement for a certain knowing-wink-and-sly-nod wing of the media culture.And yet, when a story takes on the sheer scope and intensity of the Anna Nicole Smith frenzy there's something wilful in the unexamined impulse to look away.
Plain curiosity is an essential ingredient of the journalistic enterprise, and those who deny its operation in the interest of some higher value usually are not entirely to be trusted.In the case of the unfortunate Smith, there was something almost touchingly retro about her wretched train wreck of a life. She wasn't, in fact, celebrated just for being a celebrity, as is the current mode. She'd earned her notoriety the old-fashioned way: She took her clothes off for it, then married rich — though like so much else in her ambit, that apparently didn't turn out very well.

Americans have a hard time abiding a tale of struggle without reward, or a story without a happy ending, which is why they so often confer a disproportionate posthumous attention on the plucky but dubious dead. Depending on how you look at it, it's a reflection of either their collective good-heartedness or common sappiness. Maybe the ultimate guarantor of the former is the unwillingness to worry too much about the latter.Those slightly melancholic reflections aside, the broad media response to Smith's end bears some separate consideration. Clearly, public interest in her death was intense. Several celebrity-oriented websites crashed because so many people attempted to read about her.

Mainstream news organizations, had page after page of reader comments about her posted to their online sites. Thursday night (The day she died), the cable news and entertainment channels were, as we've come to expect, wall-to-wall Anna Nicole Smith.What was different here was the way in which she made the leap from tabloid covers to the front pages of ostensibly serious newspapers.The mainstream journalistic coverage of Smith's death is among the first such stories driven, in large part, by an editorial perception of public interest derived mainly from Internet traffic. Throughout the afternoon on Thursday the 8th, editors across the world watched the number of "hits" recorded for online items about Smith's death. These days, it's the rare newspaper whose meeting to discuss the content of the next day's edition doesn't include a recitation of the most popular stories on the paper's website.

It's a safe bet that those numbers helped shove Anna Nicole Smith onto a lot of front pages(Cant believe she made the front page of Times of India).What makes this of more than passing interest is that serious journalism is in the process of transforming itself into a new, hybrid news medium that combines traditional print and broadcast with a more purposefully articulated online presence. One of the latter's most seductive attributes is its ability to gauge readers' appetites for a particular story on a minute-to-minute basis. What you get is something like the familiar television ratings — though constantly updated, if you choose to treat them that way.There's no point belabouring what the ratings preoccupation has done to broadcast news, particularly the once-promising 24-hour cable news channels. TV today has their prime-time slots all are dominated by clones of Fox's Bill O'Reilly because his show draws the medium's biggest nightly audience, Channel 4’s Big brother which is always looking for controversies. Life is short, so let's not talk about CNN Headline's Nancy Grace or Glenn Beck.

The point is that the transformation of cable television news into a snarling verbal food fight with a scant informational component happened because the people running it decided to let the numbers run them.Television ratings or aggregated "hits" on newspaper websites constitute useful marketing information. When they're transmuted into editorial tools, what you get is a kind of faux-empiricism that can create a false but nearly irresistible authority. It's that most misleading of commodities, information without context. It is data, but not necessarily information, that you can use because you understand the data. In the case of these accumulations of online hits, it is hard to know what you're measuring beyond a 24-hour fad or the inclinations of obsessive people with too much time on their hands.Standing on the cusp of this inevitable transformation, it's a good moment for newspapers to take a reflective breath to consider just how they want to play this numbers game — or, more important, whether they want to play it at all.

If that were to occur, then Anna Nicole Smith would not have died in vain.

Monologue with THYSELF

Janne bhi don yarron..

Evertime I watch that film I get reminded of Imago Somehow,
The crazy love for acting, laughs, stage, passion, insanity,, ......Imago.....,,, we thought we would be like Barry, never do an MBA, make PVR into a theatre performance area, make peace with Pakistan, Direct aamir and shabana aazmi someday, make cinema like hazaroon khwahish, Change the gross content in news media someday, hang Manu Sharma and vikas yadav, ban saas bahu serials and ofcource change the world.
I see myself such a changed person after all these years (just been 3 actually), not that the fire has died but the ideas have changed, it’s the same person trying to do the same thing but differently. I see life much more in grey now rather than those black and white patches as a 21 year old, understand why people do things that I think are ‘Unethical’. Have become mature (even though mom doesn’t think the same). Have been having great chats with Benoj about life and I realise how when we all grow up we become more patient and understanding. When working with NDTV I started realizing the pressures media people can go through, how it is not about news but money by the end of it, have we lost the point somewhere in that journey is what I always asked myself? No, it’s a journey which was meant to be from that path, it’s a maturing country which is in the phase of adolescence, and it is bound to go wrong somewhere on the way I answered to an ignorant self.

Now talking about cinema I think its matured with time, I felt proud seeing films like parzania and black Friday (im glad I have met anurag kashyap personally), I spoke about it fondly with theatre friends in Glasgow and felt that there still are people back home who haven’t fell in the trap of 'just' making money, getting settled and married. They want to make good cinema, explore creativity, light the stage on fire, and give people goose bumps through visual magic. Parzania, nothing can be said about Naseer; I have always believed he is an actor with amazing versatility and spontaneity. Sarika is brilliant as ever, Rahul dholakia take a bow.
Final solutions is another film on the same issue I had loved , I was one of the fortunate ones to be in the interactive screening of the film by Rakesh Sharma in Imago for the theatre students and his believe in the cause made me look up to the man.
Films like hazaroon khwahishein Aesin(my favourite) on naksalvadi's in Bihar (Sudhir Mishra cinema)have given parallel cinema a new dimension and along with Nagesh kukunoor, Rakesh OmPrakash Mehra , Mira Nair, Satyajit Ray , Shonali Bose(Amu), Shyam Benegal and many more there is a hope that our cinema has come to a maturity stage.
As far theatre is concerned, it’s a known fact that it’s dying a slow death in our part of the world. In Delhi, theatre is a storm in a tea cup. The same old faces (includes me) who keep repeating performances and plays. Theatre vallas are the only people who come to watch the form of art when they are not performing and that small group of people keeps rotating amongst each other. Directors like Royston Abel, Barry John, Feisal Alkazi , Sohaila Kapur, Mahesh dattani, Lushin Dubey, Lillette(I hate her plays) dubey, Bubbles subherwal , Arvind Gaur , AAmir Raza Hussain and Nasseer are the only names that I have been seeing consistently perform since a child and I guess much before. The sad part is that no new Directors have come up (Exceptions like Abhilash Pillai who made Mid Summer Nights Dream in Hindi for NSD which I thought was brilliant) in the last many years because of reasons I have seen personally that theatre by the end of it is becoming unviable, you do it only for the LOVE of it and half the people go to Bombay and start acting in Saas bhi kabhi bahu thi and kasauti zindagi ki when they have had enough. I hope it gets better in the future and more people try make this real form of expression come alive before it dies a painful(for us theatrevallas) Death.

Print News has been transforming from talking about issues to gossips, to the exception of Indian express and Hindu most newspapers talk more about page 3 than sexual abuse nowadays.
It’s a sign of our societies growing interests in the materialistic world than real which sometimes is scary.

Politics in India is more like seeing a circus or a Striptease and pay for the cheap thrills of some other's who are generally either criminals or under world dons. Life is short so I wouldn’t mention the bureaucrats and corruption involved in the whole game which is quite frustrating by the end of it.


So what do you think we should do?



Most of you would believe that the point I am making is that its all dark with the future even more bleak , No, not in the least .Im just trying to show myself a mirror and to light that fire again rather than saying

'JANNE BHI DO YARRON'

Pranay SAYSSSS..............

Pranay SAYS

I Want(Read Need) to go to a HOOOONNNEEEEYYYYYMMMMOOOOONNNNNN


Only thing is I need to get 'MARRIED' first

I've learned

I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

SO NOW I WILL SAY:

I like you because of who you are to me, A true
friend.


Remember:

"A good friend will come bail you out of jail....

But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying

WE screwed up, but we had fun!"


Proud to be your Friend!

Romantic Relationship's have taught me a lot in life,

I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper.
The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned...that money doesn't buy class.

I've learned..that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved. !

I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all in one day.
What makes me think I can?

I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned...that the less time I have to work, the more things I get done.

I've learned....that its better to let it go than to drag it more,

I've learned... that nobody in this world is worth your tears, and people who are will never make you cry.

I've learned... Thyself, my strenghts and my weaknesses.

I've learned... that rather than saying she was not worth it, say it was not meant to be.

I've learned... that time is the biggest healer .

I've learned... you can fall in love more than once .

I've learned

Im not angry that it ended ,im just glad that it happened.